FLOWiNG RAiN

a: so you take a 3-month vacation?
r: yes
a: how can a vacation be so long as 3 months?
r: because it is flexible here
a: what are you doing?
r: abcdabcd... have you ever taken such a long vacation?
a: never
r: would you if you had the chance?
a: no
r: why?
a: i wouldn't know what to do

r: so what should i choose
a: you should always choose what brings you more choices
r: what would you do
a: abcdabcdabcd... but finally you should go with your guts. let me give you an example. i started in xxxx in new york. then i came back to china. someday i felt i would like to go to us again because it is where the hardcore is. so i worked back in the us for 2 years. but now if you ask me, i should say the two years is totally a waste of time
r: why
a: you should always know where your value is. you can find a lot of people like me in new york. i was comparing my disadvantages with their advantages. honestly speaking, i would not be what i am today if i stayed in ny. so if you know what you want, do not waste your time. the one year german experience can do very little to your career path. but if you want to have german dishes, or get to know another culture, that s another matter

i cannot say whether he is right or wrong. likewise, i am not sure if i am making the right decision. i only know that some of these make perfect sense. some just sound...very different... the thing is --- that's why he is who he is and i am who i am. i'll bear these words in mind anyways. he has influence over me, for sure. but he is not me. i and only i myself can make the judgment on where my life is going.